I really want to drink tonight. I am 24, alcoholic. I am a shipwreck. Don’t have alcohol. No means that will allows me a reasonable certainty not to wake up tomorrow. I have bad anxiety and ending up in a hospital which would be worse than everything. I don’t even know what I want. Just not having any of these thoughts I guess. The ones telling me what a worthless crazy piece of shit. Flashbacks hurt so much. Knowing that even how hard I try my mother will continue to grasp any power she has on me to make me feel guilt for being her […]
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Trans guy. TW was abused in about every possible way. PTSD- GAD-Major Depression for as long as I can remember.. Don't want to die but don't know how to live.