I’ve had suicidal thoughts since I was a teenager. I was always able to talk myself out of it. I never really made an actual plan. I always kind of dreamed about way’s I’d do it, but they were always violent and I knew I wouldn’t go through with it.
This is dumb but I actually joined the army hoping I’d get the opportunity to do it without my family knowing it was suicide.
I made a mistake while I was in and I think it’s about to bite me in the ass. I would lose everything. I don’t think I’d be able to look myself in […]