I’ve noticed that there hasn’t been a lot of talk of after the suicide sort of thing. I mean, I see why one might not care. But personally I want to make sure that I am not buried. I want to be cremated and have my ashes put in the ocean. Seems silly I know. But does anyone else find this important? Or just me?
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I’m pretty sure I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I go from idealizing people I’m close to to hating their guts for no reason. My emotions are always jacked up. I’m paranoid as fuck about other people’s motives. I destroy relationships on purpose and I can’t help it. And I have more than a few self destructive tendencies. A few days ago I “accidentally”? drank to the point where I smacked my head against a wall falling downstairs. I then heard my friend yelling my name and shaking me, but this eventually got fainter and fainter until I suppose I blacked out and became unresponsive for about a […]
There’s almost no point anymore. My parents are never happy with anything I do. I have never been good enough for them. When I was a child an A wasn’t good enough bc it wasn’t an A+. They are sending me to a shrink bc they are christian and I’m an atheist.And they think my sexual orientation is disgusting. The man I love is in a completely different state, hours away. My old friends all stabbed me in the back. My real friends are a two hour drive away. I have no car, no money, and my parent’s house in is the middle of […]