So in my life I’ve noticed these cycles. Where things are good and then they get bad. I realize that’s normal and everybody is going to have their ups and downs. It just that it seems like mine keep getting shorter. As in the good periods get shorter while the bad seems to get longer and worse than the last. And now it seems like the only thing keeping me together is looking up and reading on different varieties of suicide. It’s the only thing that keeps me sane, or at least that’s what it feels like. When I look into what the future holds, […]
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Lately things have been looking up for me. But I’ve been so lonely. I mean I have people to talk to, but when I talk to them all they want to talk about is their problems. How everything in their life is so important and life or death for them. I understand how for them, yah it is important, and I’ll listen to them, I always do, but sometimes you just need to talk about your own issues and have somebody to sit and listen to you. And right now that’s what I need. But when I even try to bring up something I wanna […]
About a month ago I lost my scholarship. With it I lost my future career as well and the respect of my family. All my friends have moved off and barely talk to me anymore. Each day i can barely drag myself out of bed and try not to think of all the possible ways to off myself. I know it would hurt my family and everyone who cares about me. But I just can’t take the looks of disdain anymore. Or knowing that I’ve failed them. I just don’t see anymore hope for me. Not when I’m going to be kicked out in less than a […]