I’ve found away around my pain problems, sleeping pills, i’m going to OD myself after I write a note, then again who would care my friends no longer like to talk to me, my mom and brothers have told me literally they wish I didn’t exist, and a girl that I love no longer wants to see me; I can’t stop crying. I know in my first post where I told my story I was told things would get better, I did think that but now I have nothing, I wish I could die just by wanting to die, saddly that’s not possible.
I’ve made a post before telling how and why I feel unhappy. But life seems so dull for me, and for some reason seems to like to send people that just aim to stress and hurt me emotionally. In the shortest way I can explain as to why my problems are worsening is I’m just tired of everyone. I’ve become so emotionless to the point where I just don’t care about almost everything, I ignored it to the point where it’s just all to much. The only thing stoping my end is just the fear of pain.
So before I start talking, I guess I’ll say a small bit about my self. I’m 15, a freshman in high school, going toward sophomore after the summer goes by like always. I’ll keep my name anon. though.
But anyways, I’ve been depressed. As a child I had a abusive father, my mother could never do anything about him hitting me or my siblings. He used to come home drunk, pretty much rape my mother and rampage when thing didn’t go his way. My brother used to touch me as a child, him being gay. I’ve never told my mother, I just forgotten about it and […]