Don’t people always preach to welcome Death, to embrace it, to not live in fear of it? So why does it seem when someone kills themselves people get so mad? I mean we’re embracing it aren’t we? Maybe in a diluted, dark way but we are. So than why are we so willing to put people to Death? Somebody will missÂ that person, be hurt, so does that really make us any better than suicide-rs, the people we’re sending off to Death? Your killing them to feel better, we all know it, its for closure. Like suicide. Its not fair putting people off to Death, i mean for fucks sake whats killing them going to do besides spread more pain and false comfort? And if we’re allowed. to do that well why can’t we off ourselves? Whats so damn wrong with not wanting to be in pain your entire life?Â I mean i know it hurts other people…but what about all the pain we’ve been put through? What about how i fucking feel?!!? I’m HOLLOW! I don’t FEEL! All i can do is think of all the pain I’ve been put through, our shattered hearts and polluted minds. Our pain hurts us…it hurts others. So why can’t we just end it, for all of us?
the first time i cut. i kinda expected the blood to squirt everywhere, like in the movies, sometimes i still do. ya know? it just seems called for but its all slow and sticky. beh >.< i always wondered if we’re supposed to be here. when i think of all the ways i can chose from to off myself, i do it because i think im a burden. so if we think that of ourselves, are we really bad people for doing it? i mean we’re just trying to help, saving people from the wreched amounts of pain we’ve put them through. i mean is it that bad? trying to do whats right, i know its wrong. but somewhere in my mind i’ve come to believe, isn’t it my choice? to live in pain or to die freely? i’ve hurt everyone i care about. isn’t it time, karma pays back and i die?