i still haven’t gotten over what she did, and i don’t even know what to do. about 45 minutes ago i had a total breakdown. not a depressive one, i can’t describe the emotion, it was like an EXTREME adrenaline rush, i felt EXTREMELY euphoric but in the back of my head was the lingering depression that has been around with me for about 7 months. i CANNOT take this anymore and i DO NOT want to take the medication (risperdal) because it just makes me an emotionless, bored zombie…
i just want to fucking kill myself…