Today I went to the St. Patrick Day parade. I was having a really good time and i actually had fun, which seems to never happen. But now that I’m home my mind is just yelling at me and telling me, why the hell were you happy, you cant do that, stop being happy. Now I just feel so depressed and i feel like i have to be mad at myself for being happy, instead of being proud of actually having fun and being happy. i just dont know what to do.
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natalie718
I’m a 15 year old girl. I have major depression, dysthymia, cyclothymia, and mildly bipolar. My family and i dont get along at all. I dont really have any friends at school, and i suck at school. I have been self harming myself for five years, and it has become an addiction to me. iv been put in a hospital before, and im scared that its going to happen again. iv attempted suicde before, and sometimes it still crosses my mind. i dont feel that if i were to commit suicide, anyone would care. i feel lifeless all the time. i just want to feel […]