I am so depressed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want my sister to die, she has terminal cancer. and she can’t be treated where I live ( Jordan ) And I dont have the money to send her outside for treatment. I tried asking people, the government, i made a campaign to raise money I tried everything nobody want’s to help me, I am so depressed I can’t even go to work. I live in the UAE and work here, what kills me is that I am not there with her and she is in so much pain. she is so depressed she doesn’t want to die, she is only 19. I tried killing myself 3 days ago. It didn’t even work. I was rushed to the ER. after experiencing how it feels to know you are going to die I even feel worse, she feels like this everyday and I can’t help her. she is my only sister and only family. I can’t quit my job otherwise she’d have no food and no place to stay in, and I can’t be next to her! Could life be more cruel ? I lost my dad before and now I don’t want to lose her. I literally have no other family and we are so close.
I want to die. I just dont know how ! I cant live anymore, my father passed away and now my only sister is dying of cancer I have no family left. How can I possibly end my life in the easier most painless way possible ?