You know when I think suicidal I don’t think calm. Maybe it is too many movies Idk. All I know is that I am tired, soul tired. It isn’t a screaming crying I wanna die kind of thing. It is simply ..I’m tired, I can’t do this anymore. It is hard keeping up the front of being happy. I am too old for all this (I am 35) being a single mom, trying to make ends meet, and pretend that it is easy. Those who see me struggle think I have everything under control so they don’t help. Even when I reach out to […]