I want to have an out of body experience. In my body I feel like I am going to explode. I hate my body. I hate being in my body. I hate being. I want to see my self how others see me. And see if all the flaws I self consciously invent are real. I want to know. I want to know if I look normal, because I never felt normal. I want to know my own mannerisms. I want to see myself outside myself because I can never see my self and I feel entrapped by my subjective experience. I am trapped by […]
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neuropedia
So here’s the deal:
I have this condition called post traumatic stress disorder from my life sucking for a while, and all it really does is make my life suck more and renders me incapable of feeling any emotion similar to happiness and  incapacitates me from any form of escapism, self-help or relating to other people. I have nightmares whenever I sleep, and anxiety through the day. I’ve been suicidal for years. Had major self esteem/self identity issues. Been sexually assaulted.  Was bullied as a child. Cutter for six years. Eating disorders. Sleep disorders.  Y’know the whole deal.
If you fancy yourself to be somewhat intellectual and can […]