It started a few years ago when all my friends were graduating, getting their first jobs, or starting a Master Degrees. And where was i??
Well 4 years into something i should have finished in 3 i still had half of my subjects to finish, it ended up taking 3 more years ( 7 total) to do so.
I started to taking side toutoring classes for some subjects and which made me feel guilty because those services are not cheap and i was putting even more wight on my parent’s shoulders.
With all this i felt so ashamed i didn’t want to show my face around, i started withdrawing from family and from friends, i stoped going out with them, althought i still had my student room rented in the capital (where all my real frends were), i spent most of the time in my hometown where i was taking the toutoring classes.
For 2 years appart from a wedding invitation i declined all and avery social event, nights out, dinner party……
I cut off almost everybody from my life( even some family) , looking back now i see how big of a mistake that was, so if you’re reading this and you’re depressed/suicidal don’t make the same mistake, seek out somebody at least one person, whom you fell you can talk to, if you know somebody depressed/suicidal and you’re wondering how to help them don’t leave them alone even if they try to push you away make clear they can always come to you