For me, every SINGLE year since late 2008 has been absolute HORSE SHIT. I swear to god, if I have even ONE more shitty year after 2018, then I’m DONE with life.
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Ok here’s my story:
One day about a year ago, I ALMOST actually ended my life.
What happened was i thought about stepping in front of a car. I saw a speeding car go by. Then, RIGHT AFTER THAT, I literally PROMISED myself that IF I saw another speeding car go by on the road, that I would purposely step in front of it. Unfortunately I didn’t see any more cars on the road after that one went by. TRULY unfortunate! REALLY wish there was another car going at the same speed so I could have just ended my miserable life!
Also, i am literally 100% POSITIVE that […]
Killing myself on January 1, 2020 if nothing changes. Already have it all planned out.
REALLY LONG POST.
Been sitting here for hours trying to get the guts to finally fucking end it. I just wish I had the guts to fucking end it already. I can almost GUARANTEE that I will end it myself SOMEDAY with in the next year or two. This is not something that I will be able to avoid. And there’s no reason why I should try to stop something that I can almost guarantee I won’t be able to avoid.
im SICK of god. For the last 9.5 YEARS he has done absolutely NOTHING but make my life as hard as he possibly can, and has […]
For the last hour I have been in EXTREME emotional pain.
Most of it has to do with this girl I like. I am EXTREMELY sad about the fact that I never see her anymore and I am EXTREMELY sad because I am thinking about things like, all the good times I had with her in school, and how I never get to see her anymore. And how I never have times like that anymore, especially with her, and it’s causing me EXTREME emotional pain.
I just turned 21 on April 5. Ever since junior year of high school, i have had the STRONGEST feelings for this […]
I was SO close to ending it a few nights ago. Every time, SOMETHING always gets in the way, and I chicken out. EVERY TIME. I really wish I had the guts to just end it already. Just had my 21st birthday April 5. Every year just gets more and more depressing and overwhelming. No reason to live anymore. There’s NO WAY I’ll make it to 30, and maybe not even 22 or 23. I’m worried.
My mom gets angry at me just for crying sometimes, and for having feelings that I just simply cannot control. I JUST DONT GET IT. It just doesn’t make sense.
I would go end it RIGHT NOW if there were indeed a way to do it without feeling any pain.
I want to end it. Too much pressure.
Feeling more suicidal than I have EVER felt before, right now
I have wanted to die for a LONG time now, but in a few months I will probably want to die more than I EVER have before
To make a long story short, there is this girl who I am SO MADLY IN LOVE WITH, and she is getting married in July of this year. I know I should be happy for her, but to be honest, I am absolutely 100% PISSED OFF.
WHY DO ALL THESE GREAT THINGS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE, when literally NOTHING good ever happens to me anymore?????? Why must the ONE girl I like enough to want to marry, HAVE TO BE GETTING FUCKING MARRIED?????? Don’t bother telling me to find another girl, because I have NEVER IN MY LIFE liked a girl as […]
THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!! GOD IS A SABOTAGING ASSHOLE! FUCK HIM!!!!!!!!!!
basically, to make a long story short, I should have broken a WORLD RECORD in bowling when I was only 17/18, if only it weren’t for my ocd/distracting thoughts/abnormal problems I have. I’m almost 21 now. Every day that goes by, I get more and more PISSED OFF that I STILL haven’t accomplished something that I should have at least three years ago. I’m sick of every day getting WASTED. IM SO PISSED OFF ABOUT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS FUCKING BULLSHIT HOW YOU ARE BORN WITHOUT EVEN BEING GUVENA CHOICE AND THEN, YOU ARE BASICALLY “FORCED” TO BE ALIVE. I SWEAR GOD IS THE BIGGEST PIECE OF SHIT TO EVER EXIST!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, so the main reason I haven’t committed suicide yet is because I have this fear of pain. Every time I go down to my kitchen, I see the drawer of knives and literally all I can think about is ending my life with one of them.
Today, something very weird and unusual happened. I suddenly, didn’t care about the pain I would feel if I stabbed a knife into my chest. I swear to god, every SINGLE time I think about ending it, there is always at least ONE thing stopping me. It’s so annoying. I can’t IMAGINE living the REST OF MY ENTIRE LIFE […]
I have one. Mine is to get the guts to die in 2018.
You don’t have to agree with this but this is just why I hate god.
Basically god does so many hurtful things to me and also so many things I completely disagree with.
Okay, so apparently if you commit suicide, you go to HELL. That is one of the STUPIDEST things I can possibly of. To be honest, I have one of the worst lives EVER, and I have wanted to commit suicide for the longest time. I understand that people will be seriously hurt if someone does this, but I don’t think you should go to HELL for that. God does a lot of asshole things […]
All I want for Christmas is to die
christmas vacation is just now starting for me and I ALREADY feel like complete shit.
I DONT WANT TO BE ME ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every year, my life ONLY gets worse. More pressure, more anxiety, more self hate, more wishing I was dead. I have wanted to die since I was about 11 years old, and I will be 21 this April. I really hope I die before 2018 without killing myself. I’m just NOT willing to stick around to see ANOTHER shitty year!
I can’t even tell you how many times I have asked God to end my pathetic, miserable, bullshit, pointless life. Literally every year has been SHIT since 2008. I go through every day wishing I was never born. I literally spend EVERY single day wishing […]
I AM IN SO MUCH STRESS AND PHYSICAL DISCOMFORT THAT I CANT FUCKING BREATHE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!