Right now I’m playing Pharrell Williams’ song “Happy” loud, on repeat, not because I’m happy. I’m trying to vanquish the way I feel.
I feel hopeless and desperate.
I know that this feeling, this depression will ease up. Trick is to hang in there until it does. No mean feat. I’m a veteran at hanging in there until the blues passes. It just so terrible that it always has to come back.
I feel as though I am running out of the resources to deal with this.
I can be in a good place surrounded by people that I love and still be fighting the suicide demons. Still have […]