With all the mental breakdown going on aside, I am going through weird things at home that is hard to explain.
Being in a state of constant emotional pain, I have withdrawn myself from spirituality – I don’t go to church or worship God in any way. I believe there is someone/something controlling all of us but my anger is they are not doing a great job. I don’t care if I am wrong, cause that is how I feel.
Now, the 2 or 3 ppl I talk to are pressuring me to follow God to release myself from all the bad things that I am chained to unintentionally.
My mind is messed up, I can’t think, I want to run away and hide but I can’t. Im stuck.