I just posted a few hours ago so..sorry for the double post but…I want to know if anyone has been through what I have..i lost my wife and 1 year old daughter about 5 months ago and I wanna talk to someone who has been through something similar. It’s funny…I read all these other posts and..I dont mean to make their problems seem less but…they all seem so trival, you want to kill yourself because you wanna get away from “soceity”, cause you don’t have an xbox? So many of these posts are just such small things. You lose your fucking daughter..and wife..then you can […]
OneLastSunset
Goddammit…I just test fired the gun to make sure it was working..it does. That just scared the hell out of me. I cannot keep living like this..my fucking wife and daughter are gone..for fucking ever and I cant fucking do this..but fuck…Im just to goddamkn scared of pulling the trigger
I’m laying here looking out the window..it’s been pouring all day, and the sky is so dark..you can’t see 2 feet in front of you. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat..hell, I broke my foot and a toe..I can’t even walk. So I’m just laying here staring into the gray outside. I can’t stop thinking about them..about how nothing can bring them back..it was a fiancee and daughter, if anyone reading this was wondering. She was a little over a year old, and the most adorable thing ever..she’d play this peek a boo game with a blanket. I think I made a post about it […]
About 2 weeks ago. I just don’t know what to do anymore…I can’t fucking stand it..every fiber of my body is screaming every second of every day. I’m only 23 but my daughter was about a year old and I met her mom way before that, years ago..money is so tight at the moment..I can’t afford any method of suicide that will be even moderately humane. I won’t mention what I’ve chosen since the mods for some reason decide this board has to be “method free”..even though people talk about it every day…anyways..jesus…I wouldn’t wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy.
Ya know, the human body, for being so fragile, is fucking hard to kill. No one wants a painful death and when it comes right down to it, there’s only a handful of ways to off yourself that could be called humane. Sure, a gun is easy enough to get a hold of, but having the balls to actually pull it trigger? Much harder than you’d think. Jumping from a high enough building would work,but I get vertigo on the second floor of my apartment, no way I could get on top of that high a building, let alone jump off. If I had my […]
I would assume a large amount of people here know about a.s.h, or least know what it was. If you don’t, google it. It was around from about early ’88 to the early..maybe mid 2000’s (though I don’t think it was that late..most recent thing I found was 2001.) So it’s been a really long time but, I’m curious if anyone knows if it’s around in one form or another anymore. I’m almost positive that the only thing still existing is the archives, but anyone know anything else?
Trying to imagine what it’s like to not exist. I’m serious about this, and I’m one of those people who always likes to know everything about something. I’m not worrying about screwing it up, I know what I’m doing and I’ll get the job done. Like I said, I’m serious about this, I’m not gunna start bitching and whining about why, but I do wanna hear from people who have accepted death. I’m not scared of the dying, or the pain, it’s just the whole…”not even nothing, no conciseness, no black, no.. anything, not even no anything”..thing. I realize that there will be no me […]
You can IM me on AIM. SynysterWays00
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