I DIDNT ASK TO BE FUCKING BORN SO IT SHOULD BE A RIGHT TO DIE
How do you cope with being lonely?
I find myself making plans and then cancel them because of social anxiety and depression.
Tonight is Halloween and I was supposed to go out with people but I canceled on them and now I feel like a fucking loser. It’s been happening a lot lately and each time I feel more and more lonely.
and the feeling of being lonely sucks. I am a sucker for (love) company.
So, how do you deal with being alone?
Once again here I am, sad and alone. Just bought a bottle of wine and Im putting sad songs on spotify. It feels like it never ends, I can have 3-4 months where I feel okay and I think life could be worth living. But nope. I always come back to this, to spend days avoiding people, feeling useless, binge eating, wasting my best years. I dont know what to do with my life.
Hope youre having a better weekend than this girl here
I would like to know what do you think/how do you feel about the fact that avicii oficially killed himself, I wasnt his biggest fan but I liked him as an artist, but for some reason I feel incredibly sad because of his dead and it was the first time I cried because a famous person died.
Its crazy how everything changes, last year I wouldnt stop going out on weekends, careless and having fun. Now I barely go out, have lost friendships because I dont like to meet up and my only company is wine. Im wasting my young adult years and I will regret it so bad in the future, wish I would have the strenght to end it all for once.
F*ck depression and social anxiety
Im so dissapointed in myself, I let my ex play with me and used me so many times, He lied to me SO MUCH, mislead me, treated me literally like his toy. I cant believe I trusted him and I cant believe that knowing the kind of person he is and that hes not gonna change, Im still not over him and still want him to come back and magically everything will be perfect. Like wtf is wrong with me, its been 3 weeks since we finally stopped talking AT ALL after an on and off relationship of one year and a half, a VERY intense one. Here I am crying because I remember the lies he told me and how much it hurts, it really burns my heart to think about it and to think that maybe hes with another girl in this very moment. I feel so much hate in my heart for him, normally I dont have hard feelings for my exs but I have so much anger right now, cant stop wishing the worst for him and cant help it. I hope this is just a phase because I dont like having so much hate for someone. Any tips on getting over someone/healing my heart or books or videos that could help? (I already cut all contact with him and blocked him on all social media)
Im back with the suicidal toughts. I had the best boyfriend I could ever had, he is the happiest person ever so it was hard for him to deal with my depressions but he tried so hard everyday. This last week we were on holidays in Barcelona and we were in the exact place of the terrorist attack. It could have been me, I could have died, finally. But no, instead, like always, a bunch of people who probably love life die. That night I got drunk with the spanish wine and my boyfriend and I had a fight. It got really bad and he hit me on the face. I cried so hard and then wishing that terrorist van would have run over me. I wanted to die so bad. He asked sorry but he said he couldnt take my mood changes and depressions anymore so we broke up, we still had 3 days more in Spain. On the third day he acted like he wanted me back the entire day JUST to have sex with me. After we did it he completely ignored me again. I never felt so used in my life. On the way back I prayed so hard that the airplane would crash and only kill me. Funny how the first the pilot said “Im happy to announce that this is a brand new aircraft so we are super safe”. Kill me please. Anyways, here I am crying in my room eating chocolate, just texted my ex begging to try it again. Im so pathetic, I just have the feel that I need him, because Im alone in this country. and I have just like one friend so theres no one else to support me here, we used to do everything together and god Im so dependant on relationships. I wish I wouldnt be like these.
I have been depressive for 4 years…trying to pretend im not and hiding it from my family and friends. I have been living in a new country for 2 years and the people i have met have moved to cities far away from me so im left with any friends here…it sucks to feel alone and i dont know what to do to find new friends, its kind of hard for me to give the first step when it comes to socializing…but i think I also need someone to talk to in real life who kind of understands how I feel, someone like you guys who read this, i wish i could meet you and help each other and create a friendship to save our lives. I wish it could be that easy. But I know i will keep being alone for a long time. It sucks not being a social person and having anxiety.
If you have someone you can be honest with and talk about depression, suicidal toughts and fears face to face, appreciate it…I wish I had.
Have a good night lovely people….