Fuck covid 19.
I don’t really know what to do. I’ve been getting drunk every night. I hate doing it alone though I wish I had someone. I feel like I’m losing it, I hate being sober more and more everyday.
I also have a stalker? I’m not really sure what to call it. He’s been harassing me for the past couple days. He’s found out where I live, he’s found out things about me I didn’t want him to know, he’s trying to get into contact with my ex to get my nudes. I don’t know what to do.
I feel so alone. I wish i had someone, I usually dont mind being alone or single. I guess I have a lot more time to think now. I want someone to hold me and tell me that everything will be alright even if it’s a lie.
Last night I cried to pitbull which was weird. Didn’t think I’d ever get to the point where I’m drunk alone in my room crying to pitbull.
I don’t really know what I’m writing right now. I guess it’s just things I don’t want to say to other people. No one really cares and this probably won’t even be read but that’s okay. I’m used to people not caring, I can just pretend people do.
I am so deeply and truly sorry