I broke my 20 days no fap streak which was the longest I ever managed to go without jerking off. I did it because I was trying to solve this math problem for school and I could not fking focus at all I was so restless I was standing up from my chair and walking in circles more then actually doing math… Fuck. I feel no energy and no confidence now.
Its just fked up. Either I jack off and then Im like a walking zombie tired and depressed all the time and also I cant look girls in the eyes or talk to them confidently coz I just feel ashamed. Or I dont jerk off and then my mind is racing, I cant focus and I cant learn.
The only options are either find a sexual partner or kill myself. Idk which one is harder but both seem just impossible to me.