Received something today. I am beyond honored…thank you. So much.
Please reach out.
Stuck in my own head since 1972. (est. 1960 :-) ) Love yourself - you are more than worth it, regardless of what you are telling yourself.
This is a pretty old song. I did something novel and actually listened to the words today. It’s really heartbreaking.
Why the heck am I posting this? I’m not 100% sure. Maybe because I fear I’ve done this to my kid some days. God, I wish I was a better parent. I guess if someone sees this, and their life looks familiar to this: it’s not your fault. Don’t blame yourself, you haven’t done anything wrong. If your parents did this to you and you’re doing it to your kids, try to break the chain and seek help.
Around these parts, NESN (TV) and WEEI (AM/FM) run a 2-day telethon for the Jimmy Fund. The Jimmy Fund supports cancer refer research.
The really cool thing is that they have a lot of patients on who share their stories. Their families and often doctors and nurses are on also. Sometimes it’s families talking about their loved ones who have lost their fight.
The strength, and grace, and compassion that is displayed is inspirational.
Today the telethon will get interrupted by the ballgame, but will resume tomorrow.
If you find yourself in an abusive relationship, run. Don’t walk, don’t stop and look behind you. Identify a safe haven for yourself and run.
You will not change them. They do not want to be changed, regardless of what they say. They will continue to try and manipulate you to stay. Run.
If you have kids, it will be harder. Much harder. But you kids will learn that it’s OK to do this to another person. They will learn fear. Run.
It will continue to get worse until you can’t leave, are emotionally or physically broken. Or dead.
Google ‘abusive relationship hotlines’ for help
I am sorry you deleted your post. You are in a very tough spot. I wish I had a good solution for you. But you have 1 important thing going for you: your amazing, inspiring courage and strength. Most of us would have been ground into dust. But not you. You are a survivor. If you keep thinking about ways to free yourself, an opportunity will present itself. Stay strong. Keep breathing.
If we are going to continue to have a society in which 1. teens think they have no other option but to off themselves, and 2. we need to neglect the poor further because people like the Trumps and Waltons need a few hundred million more, well, the second coming can’t come soon enough for this miserable fucking planet.
Sorry if this becomes a rather long post.
I want to address this to all you who think “they’ll forget about me after a year, go on and live their lives…”
They will never forget you.
I am really fortunate that I’ve never lost anyone to suicide. When I was a teen, I lost a friend to cancer. This was about 1978, maybe…give or take a year or 2. Dave Q from Shrewsbury. Great kid. If memory serves, wanted to be in law enforcement, but I could be wrong.
We weren’t the closest friends; we ran in the same circles. But I still think about him. Every time I hear the ad featuring “McGruff, the crime dog” I think of him; he had a similar voice. 🙂 I think about what kind of life he would have had, the family he might have raised, the good he might have done in this world.
It’s NOT something I think of on a daily or even a weekly basis. But Dave is still with me, and always will be.
If the pain is absolutely too much to bear and you must leave this earth, I wish you peace. But they will never forget you.
Thank you for reading.
Hi. I just feel so overwhelmed today…I just want to crawl back into bed and toss the sheets over my head. It happens every damn weekend. I’ve gotta push myself out that goddam door. And get rid of this damned headache. I’m not asking for answers or anything…I just really needed to vent. Thanks. Hope everyone is doing as OK as they can be.
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