First time posting to a suicide board. I’m not bad enough off yet to actually do it (probably 30 years out I guess.) But I have thought about death (my own and others’) all my life. As an eight year old I tried to kill myself so I could go to heaven. My life wasn’t bad, I just figured if heaven was so great, why wait? My mom stills tell the story (I hid behind a mailbox and jumped in front of a car, but I jumped out to early and the car stopped) and she always says “he didn’t know you couldn’t come back.” […]