Don’t get me wrong, Â i don’t think a little faith can hurt anyone, but my views on church tbh? kind of pointless. Â i do in fact believe their is a God but going to church, I feel like Â i’m surrounded by hypocrites. If your going to love, praise and worship god than why not do that on your own time? Just being around Â people just makes things worse because as soon as you leave no one is the same person.. Â i just pray to god that when I finally leave this earth he will take me..
I could do the whole life is meaningless and pointless because personally in my eyes it’s true. I just wanted to express the fact as to how everything is so black and white to me now. I see people but not the faces its weird. I used to think life was so beautiful and just perfect but Â i don’t know if its because got older or whatever but nothings the same. Â I see the world for what it truly is which is such a terrible and horrible place ( in my eyes) but, iv’e recently made plans for suicide and if all goes as planned Â i could leave this horrid earth.