Here is how suicidal I was 3 years ago:
1. Every night I was thinking that I have to commit suicide, “as I have no other choice”.
2. My emotional suffering seemed to me intolerable.
3. Every single thing to do (like washing clothes in a washing machine) was … extremely painful – it’s best word to describe how I felt.
4. When I was looking at my kid and realizing how my emotions affect him – I was understanding even better that I absolutely should not live.
5. When I was alone and had nothing to do, my thoughts were killing me, I had desire […]