So tired… mentally fatigued…surely an immediate death is right for one who might as well be dead… I’m just killing time and don’t even enjoy being alive, don’t appreciate it. Wish I could just lie down and expire in my sleep, kind of like going to the state of non-consciousness I’ve experienced when under general anesthesia, but staying there and never awakening. I wish that were an option…something easy, something that doesn’t need for me to be strong.
But apparently that is something you need to have to be successful, whether in trying to make it in life, or end one.