It’s my last day online, for tomorrow me and my partner are heading out to that beautiful location that points 350 feet down to freedom. Initially I didn’t want to say goodbye but I’m bored and so I guess I’ll write until time runs out. I’m not exactly sure what to tell the world, like fuck you all or be blessed. Tomorrow, I’ll celebrate like there’s no tomorrow… (haha! ironic, isn’t it) and I know i will for It’ll be the best day of my life. I have no guilt or regrets and I will not miss anything here although some of you have truely […]
Rocky90
I haven’t seen of you in over a week and i don’t know if you’re still there but i wish i could let you know that i think you’re such a great, pure soul and i enjoyed the time you spared for me unlike any other, it gave me so much strength.
I just hope that you’ll find peace somewhere and that someday we’ll meet again…
my seal wants to talk to you ;D…
I love you all so much
You are like a family to me
One day we will all die
No matter if we take ours or if life takes us
One day, I hope we will all unite as a family…on the other side!
It’s close…
I can feel it coming
sweet release – it’s near
Oh how I wish you would join me
We can leave this dirty place behind
Oh friend, I see you suffering here
And I can’t watch you like this any longer
We all have a choice to make
Noone has the right to blame us
Oh how I wish you would join me
and take my hand on this lift
I know I can’t find love in this world
I’ll be patiently waiting for you there…
You certainly don’t deserve this pain
And now I find myself void of purpose and reason
I go in peace
I have seen places there of unimaginable beauty…
Oh friend, this world divides us
Would […]
beauty, sadness, despair
i wonder…
You laugh and you smile
just like everyone else
You talk and you hush
You play games and have fun
You hang out with your friends
But noone knows…
You are the walking dead
You try to hide your empty eyes
Cause they strike fear in their hearts
You walk and you sit
But you are always floating somehow
Noone suspects the grim reality
burried underneath your pleasing words
only when you are alone
you let the truth speak in red
you are the talking dead
mute is your real mouth
your heart caved in
silenced you stand
in the face of incomprehensible horror
as frozen eyes […]
In this world, in the end you always are…
i just don’t understand why it hurts so much now…
I used to always loved being alone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2o2siXC_w0I&feature=related
Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can’t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me but now he’s gone
No one but me can save myself
But it’s too late
Now I can’t think
Think why I should even try
Yesterday […]
Why…WHY???? WHYYY?????????????????????????????????????????
…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRsofblEK3A
I am longing for that feeling
to be close and there’s nothing you can do
Sir, you have a maximum of 7 days left to live…
Doctor, please let me hear those words
I’ve been close, but never close enough
What should I do in the remaining time?
And with each passing day the gladness rises
…to know to be finally going home
and spend these last days in uncomparable peace
You only understand it
if you have felt it
My heart wants to unite
But never can
In this dirty world because
any kindness is abused
by the human mind
If only alone for an hour
I am absent from your words
the emptiness begins to crush me
in a way so painful – indescribable
So Why not unite
as a family – in death
I’ve been out before…
The human existence separates us all
And I’ve given up on it
I don’t understand
what we’re waiting for…
There’s nothing left
for me in this world – for you?
I need to go home
There is no substitute…
I am counting the days
I am waiting…
And I’m going crazy
There can not be
Not another year
It is simply impossible
My longing, my yearning
Makes my every activity here
Seem completly […]
Crying is a gift that I’ll gladly use whenever i can. You people are like my brothers and sisters – family of the broken, bearing in common the same death wish. And now time is closing like a brick wall in front of me.
And I don’t want to feel better or life to improve. I want to cry with you and I want to die with you. Let us walk this road together til the end of the tunnel and there’s only one way out and you know it…Take this and cut me so you can prove to me that we are sharing the same […]
I haven’t heard from you in days and I tried to reach you all the time and I’m so worried about you cus i know exactly how you feel and how intense this is, you mean a lot to me, please talk to me please!!
Why does noone consider?
It’s so easy. First alcohol takes away your pain makes you sleepy and right before you pass out, you swallow the powdered pills down.
Alcohol = peace
Just make sure it is a lot of it, let’s say an entire bottle of vodka…
The choice i have to make
is to live on just for your convenience
or to end my pain
…I’d rather end the pain I can’t take anymore
and break your delusionary picture of me once and for all
And I’m double-angry because…
it is not me you care about but your own image and your pride,
but I’m not your trophy and will never be.
And all your so called love has been so fake and self-serving
It is not enough to tempt me anymore…
Humans are but despicable blobbs of flesh to me
So Live your world but without me..
Amd I know if you knew of this, you’d force me to stay
and that’s why […]
He hasnt been online for 10 days and i suppose he’s gone.
Safe Journey, see you somewhere better, brother! You’ve had it worse for sure.
You deserve the peace.
I’m not far behind in the line…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhD0CQRbliI&feature=fvst
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that’s real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar’s chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right […]
Will Japan ever get as bad as the inside of my head?
This chainreaction I can’t stop…
this spiral, one way trip heading for total meltdown
no power to cool the fuel inside
Day by day, a few more braincells smoke away
and so does my logic and rationality
Yet I can’t allow them to contain me
What is to happen, let it be
Im void of sense and purpose
I can be anything yet I am nothing on the inside
Oh, what will it take to prove to myself that i still exist?
Everything is worthless, this poem is worthless