Another day living in this disenchanted society. In society I am not enchanting. In society I have to live a certain way and look a certain way. I cannot fit into this category. I can barely live. I am turning insane. I want to drop out of this cruel life I live in vain.
I am extremely exhausted of being in this world. So much is asked of me. On the outside is nothing but me and I am nothing to me. I hate walking around pretending to be like everybody else. I hate the falseness. Society is one false sob. Every single person idolized is full of it. Plastic surgery, implants, Botox. To all this hierarchy of bullshit I have failed. Real is identified by these everyday feelings other people like myself have felt. I hate the routine everyday life I live. No one around me has a clue how difficult it is to try to fit in to this false life I live everyday.
Have you ever wanted to be something and worked hard only to have all of your hard work go towards nothing at all. Feeling like a lost cause. Feeling ill like nothing at all. I’ve tried and tried and I am lost in life my demons terrorizing my mind….