I finished the book. Even tho I’m glad that they got happy ending, I imagined myself in that book with quite the opposite ending. I want to end it all, but i guess this kind of gave me? hope? i dont know. I wish Roman and Aysel were real. I wish i was friends with them. I wish we all could help eachother to the point we will think that we can be fixed. I wished I was with them at the moment. I wished i had someone like them. I wish things were different.
Author
rottenapples
I’m always trying to find a hidden message or meaning in everything I see just to somehow cheer myself up and throw out the thought of me offing myself. But nothing ever happens. I even started looking at weekly horoscop, fuck that, I tried even daily one. But nothing ever happens. Its always “blah blah your life will get better” but it never happens??? Days, weeks, months. And nothing happens. Is that the sign i was looking for? That there is nothing that would just make me stay? Just. Nothing ever happens