im always seemingly invisible… and muted… ever since i was a young kid, i would speak – and people would ignore it. They would hear it – and just talk about something else – as if I had said nothing at all.
Over the years I have become quieter and quieter. Now I have met someone that I am madly in love with. And the only issue there is that he does the same to me. He doesn’t listen to me. He speaks over me. And it hurts so bad because it brings back all the past. And it makes me close up.
I just didn’t need this one more thing, which is such an important hurting thing to me, to prove that I am not interesting or cool or whatever enough to be heard. I can’t expect any different than being ignored anymore, I don’t want to speak anymore at all.
I feel like this sounds so small but its immensely huge to me :'(
I spend so much time writing in journals things I wish I could tell him, but he doenst care. (I’ve tried)