I wasn’t supposed to be alive on my 19th birthday , I’ve been trying to kill Myself since I was 11 & told myself i need to be dead by the time I turn 18th I failed so many times but then it got to the point where I would have to stop attempting because I would just fail & it seem that No matter what I tried nothing worked. It got to the point that I would have to stop trying to kill Myself because I had to work the next day so the only thing I could do is cry myself to sleep. […]
seemokay
seemokay
my whole life I've been depressed. my childhood was ruin in the worst ways child can suffer. I was hurt & no one helped me. I kept everything to myself to protect other people's feelings. Cause some people just don't care enough. God watched me suffer for so many years. Why couldn't he help me .? he rather watch me suffer then help me . I just want to be able to say that I'm honestly okay but I'm not .
Where have I been ? It’s been a while been .. lost .. confused .. depressed.. overwhelmed.. I’m just not okay ..
haven’t been on this website for a quite sometime I’ve been writing my thoughts my feelings on a notebook.. on a few pieces of paper where someone will eventually read .. when I’m gone .. and then you’ll all know how much I was suffering inside living in this sad miserable life .. I’m not better .. & I keep repeating myself that over & over wishing for things to just end .. most of us hate ourselves our lives we don’t want this […]
what would it take for me to just kill myself am I just not strong enough to do it myself. Seems like I rather have someone else do it for me. I don’t want to feel my own pain. I rather feel it when I least expect it . But I don’t think I’ll ever have the courage to do it myself. I need someone who will feel my pain & save me by ending my life.
sometimes I don’t sleep at all .
Just because I’m afraid of what nightmare I’ll have next.
People can’t deal with dark or scary so u just tell them you’re okay when you’re not when you’re just dying inside waiting to get better but you know that will never happen .
the jumpingness the constant overwhelming crushing fear that something terrible is about to happen
I pray. I ask god to help me have I committed to many sins that he ignores me now instead
i wish I was better wish I was happier wish I was healthier but I’m not
I feel so empty inside that I haven’t eaten in days I haven’t been in the mood for anything I didn’t even show up for my final exams because I’m just in a bad mood I don’t feel okay I’m really tired. I’m upset I’m depressed nothing has changed
Imagine living in a world where you can go to the doctors & tell them that you’re depressed & would just want to die because you’ve suffered enough & he have you two options , First option will be take medications for you to feel better or Take the second option which will be giving you A pill tht can definitely kill you.
I avoid myself, why ?