I’m not really “in pain,” or anything, but I do think about killing myself an awful lot. Â I’m not really interested in anything, there’s nobody that I love, and everyone that loves or cares about me will also be dead in about 100 years anyway, and I don’t believe in an afterlife. There really is nothing that I want to live for, so whenever a small problem comes up in college, or wherever , I always think about how much easier it would be to just kill myself, than to go through the trouble of finding a solution.