What does it take to be a good man?
What is a good man?
I’m so confused, I can’t understand what am doing here. I’m trying but I don’t know what I’m aiming for. Sucks to be 21.
@Cause Of Death Suicide is my favorite member. I’ve been here for almost 6 months now. I often just read and leave. I used to engage and share my problems on a different account, but that’s all done. Now I just read… unless some things are disturbing. Anyway…
I just hope you all engage more with each other. Don’t just wanna talk about your problems but take a turn and let someone know you see them. They know, yes, that someone is there but sometimes they just wanna see.
It’s a lot harder to hang yourself than you might think. I keep thinking am doing it wrong coz all i feel is my airways closing. I hear if you do it right, cutting the blood flow to the brain gets you unconscious in 15-25 seconds tops, long before you run out oxygen. A painless experience, because hypoxia occurs after you’re unconscious. So i wonder why my makeshift noose isn’t doing the trick. But i have to figure out by the weekend. Whoever suicide death is easy, must have had a hard life.
I often follow cases of suicide and the circumstances surrounding them. Once in a while, I come across someone who is similar to me. I often try to find what happened after they did it, what changed. Almost as if I die with them, but unlike them I get to see what happens after I’m gone. It’s comforting and twisted I think, but at least I’m not dead yet. They ended it, and that’s really dark when you think about it. Suicide is done by some of the kindest people you know, and you often do have to be a little kind to choose to hurt yourself over hurting others (we all have anger towards someone, dont we?). Whether we hate life, everything inside us only knows living. The first thing your body did before you even knew you were alive, was keep you alive. Only fair it should be hard to die. It’s sad to think I want this so bad and feels so good to imagine, yet reality is its destructive. Many would be happy, but the most important people to me would be broken. Can I live for them or die for myself?
So I often follow cases of suicide trying to see… if anything changed.