I am getting very disgusted God. My “inner” strength is beginning to wane. I am starting to feel like shit again!
Does this site still have the “chat room”?
Sick of trying
Sick of lying
Sick of working
Sick of attempting to participate in this fucked-up world
Sick of caring
Sick of my autism
Sick of waking up to this fucked-up world
Sick of breathing
Especially sick of living!
Iam so fucking tired of being abused by others.
I sure hope the Mayans are right!
When I was 7 y.o.,I am 45 now,a deer in a full sprint almost ran me over during a walk I took along a path during a family reunion in a Pennsylvania park.I could feel the course hair rub up against my stomach.So close to death,but notÂ near enough so that I would of had the “eternal bliss’ that would of been Â given me.When Â I was an evangelical christian ,I thought that God had a special purpose for my life because of this incident.What a foolish thing to believe on my part.I wish that I was 2 more inches ahead so that deer would of wasted me .
Is there anyone here in their 30’s and above who never had a “significant other”?I would like to hear your stories.And do you feel so lonly that you want to kill youself?
I am tired of breathing
I am tired of eating
I am tired of being a “doormat”.
I am tired of working
I am tired !
I am so fucking tired of breathing!
I hate when evangelical christians and their political alliesÂ say that they areÂ Â Â Â Â pro-life.If a person says they are pro-life he or she shouldÂ work dilligently to make this fuck-up world better for the rest of us.
I can’t stand it when religious fanatics say that “God gives people only what they can bear”.If that were true there would be no suicides.I was an evangelical christian at one time.
I am 45 years old and contemplating killing myself.I never had a girlfriend.I try to be kind and decent to others around me but, feel no true caring from others.I have been attending school part-time on and off since 1994.More off due to my crippling anxiety and lack of self-worth.My “goal” is to become a special education teacher.People arround my treat me like I amÂ sub-human and are only nice to me if they want something.I irritate others arround me because I am so fucked-up socially.Â Â Â Â Â Â U nfortunatelyÂ I amÂ Â Â Â Â Â Â starting to develop a hatred for humankind, even though I do not want to feel this way.This hatred saddens me greatly and makes me want to cry.I used to have faith in God but not anymore.I feel like a rowboat adrift at sea with no land in sight.I really fucking hate living!