I’ve lost everything, or at least it feels like it. I’ve spent the last year in a relationship in which neither of us knew how to love one another. Consequently, I spent a lot of it being screamed at. I’ve just recently ended it and despite this being for the greater good I now feel truly alone, more so then I ever have before. All my friends either have moved on or have bigger aspects of their lives to tend to. Even if they didn’t, I feel so weak and sick whenever I even give a hint of an honest detail of how I feel […]
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I feel awful all the time and I don’t know why. Nothing seems real anymore, its like I never truly feel anything. Even when I interact with people in my life, it all seems like my experiences mean nothing to me anymore, instead everything seems so hollow (even though it seems like nothings changed.) I spend most of my days studying, exercising and reminiscing on past experiences for they felt so much more meaningful and REAL. Yet I don’t understand why I feel this way, I haven’t lost anyone nor have any major circumstances changed since then, so why I do feel so empty now. […]
I think I’ve run out of the capacity to feel. I feel so empty inside nowadays. I’ve quit some unhealthy habits in my life yet I still feel no different. I’ve lost my ambition; I complete my schoolwork more out of a lack of interest in anything else but I never really feel like I’m taking anything else in. I’ve stopped caring about my health and my relationships. I keep my head in sports and other hobbies but it all feels so half assed. I’ve started drinking heavily, my first time in while since I found other means of high. I don’t worry too much […]
I feel like as I age everything I do (my interests, social interactions, studying) is just half assed and empty. The only emotions that feel real to me anymore are sadness and nostalgia for parts of my life that had any meaning. Whenever I study, I just feel stupid or doubtful of the interest I once had in the subject. University pales in comparison to the times I used to have in college. I can’t live like this, nothing I do has meaning and I worry that I’ll spend the rest of my life in this limbo of work, sadness and reminiscence. In all honesty, […]