It doesn’t matter if you die! Unless you’re the president or some hot shot movie star, no one is going to give a shit. And I’m not saying that to make you sad, I’m doing it to tell you that no matter what happens the only people you’re affecting are those who may actually care, and yourself. If I killed myself now, it’s not like the world is going to suddenly be peaceful, and the Taliban will just never show their faces again. No, in reality it doesn’t matter if you die. Yeah, go ahead. Go cry over it. Or think, if I could die […]
Starry Eyed Loser
I hate my ass hole of a brother. He kicks the kids around, tells everyone to shut the hell up, acts like he’s the fucking king… My mom seems to believe that everytime I’m upset or something it just /has/ to do with her. Yeah, I don’t wanna move. But did she ever think that the fact my brother was threatening me was possibly upsetting? And that she didn’t do anything was awfully bitchy of her? I hate it here. I hate the kids at school, the people at home… I’m just too much of a coward to die now… I don’t know what the […]
Damn, for suicidal and or depressed people you sure know how to act like fucking morons.
Not all of you- Most of you can turn away now.
No, this is to the people that act like fucking asses on my posts, saying things that if I was in a bad enough mood would kill myself over.
This is to the people that say their life is so terrible yet they have time to sit on here and post shit about how they hate an ONLINE USER. FUCK YOU ALL!
You fucking morons don’t even belong here. I want you to comment here and tell me what gives you the […]
One person stopped emailing me after what I’m guessing was an attack of depression and no doubt suicide soon after. Now no one will tell me what the hell happened to my other friend who has tried committing suicide more than once. Why the hell!? Fuck you all. What the hell is the point of a friend if they deny you your friendship, they act friendly, piss you off, and then DIE!? What. The. Hell. Why the hell do I never make friends? THIS is why!
I met someone on this site. I don’t know their username, I don’t know their real name, only their email. And today, they emailed me: “This is the last email you will be getting from me.”
…Anyone… help…?
I love it how people can come on this site and share their life story with us but still judge us by our posts. WTF DO YOU KNOW!? I may not be telling everyone everything on here. You don’t even know me and you’re JUDGING me by the first few posts you find? If you really understood and could “relate” then maybe you should shut your god damn mouth and let us be. YEAH, LIFE IS REAL FUCKIN BORING. How the hell do you know that’s the only reason some of us are hurting, dying inside, etc. What the hell do you know about us […]
I can’t do regular schooling, so I’m doing online school. But see, here’s my problem. If I do that, I already know that I’m going to lose all of my friends. The guy I like won’t be around. And not just that, but I only have three years left of school. I have no time left to be…what I am. My mind is in so many different places, robotics, being a robot, aliens… But its not on school. I’m going to fail more at life in the next three years than I ever will. I hate my life, I hate myself, I my decisions, and […]
I started laughing really loud on the way home from school today, I was happy because my shadow reminded me of Tenma! He wears a trench coat that wooshes out, and when the wind picked up I looked like that in my shadow. xD Some guy got mad though, he was walking behind me when it happened.
Other than that, I lost the only person I talk to about..well, anything. Looks like it’s back to being all alone and shiz.
So, I was watching the 2003 version of Astro Boy and have fallen in love with an anime character. You know why? They always love you, never leave you, and they never ever aren’t there for you. Dr.Tenma… He’s something. Everyone tells me I’m stupid, but I found it quite fun to say I love Tenma. Even I don’t know if its really love, but I do know that it keeps me happy and stuff. <3
“Oh, feel better WINK WINK. I’m probably one of those obnoxious preppy whores you see every day at school, yeah, the one with the low cut shirt and horribly annoying voice that taunts you even when I’m not around!”
Fuck. Off.
And you too Mr. “This site isn’t like it used to be!” NO DUH. NOTHING is like it used to be. Get the fuck off if you don’t like the fact that sometimes, you can’t just focus on the suicidal kids/people. For once in my life I actually feel at ease. The stuff I tell you here is stuff that only you know- A secret.
If my […]
Not sure if I’m the alone one here keeping myself alive not only by partially being a coward (no offense intended) but also by thinking: “What if aliens land tomorrow?” Sometimes, I’ll be sitting in my bed with a knife, thinking about how nice the pain would feel again. No, not the reaction afterwords, the pain in general. But then I think, what if that really cool demon from hell comes and decides he loves me? I immediately put the knife down. What if ninjas abduct me? I can’t run while losing blood. Or, I’ll never be great psychonaut if I can’t even get over […]
I always wake up to wonder if what I THINK I dreamt was real or fake, or maybe a little bit of both, or may its neither… I can’t go out into the public without freaking out, becoming something that I have grown to know as myself. I can’t sleep at night, so I’m tired in he morning. I start to play movies of me flying down a hill, hitting to solid ground hard, and rolling down it. Once I was really not having a good time. I had broke down crying at my locker at school, causing a major panic to some-what nice people, […]
I wonder this a lot. Well, a boy who was like a brother to me got arrested for drug possession and resisting arrest. I might be kicked out of RSA (An art school). I seem to have this constant feeling of either being completely emotionless or angry… My friends seem to think its nice befriending people who call me a cutter and such, and an emo (which means emotional and I am not.) (Nor do I cut.) Sometimes I think I should though… Today I got put by the annoying guy who is shorter than I am (I’m 4′ 11″) and all he did was […]
I never seem to have a good day. All of my “friends” here seem to think its up to me to make every choice and shiz. If I wanna do something I have to speak up. And sometimes, it seems like they just use me for how I feel. : / I don’t want to put my whole life story on here, but a friend that I could talk to and stuff would be great.