Here I am trying my best, Trying to make EVERYONE happy. But no my friends decide to go behind my back and say I’m a downer,I never get anything done, I screw everything up, I take everything away from them. Like really *****? I give my everything and I NEVER ask you people for anything. I’m stuck here putting up with all of you, just because I actually care about someone and I’ll do anything I possibly can to keep his head held up high because hes the only one who doesnt talk about me behing my back, never asks me for anything, treats me […]
stillstuck98
stillstuck98
I'm a 13 year old girl and I've been in hospital 3 times this year for self harm. Suicide is a common thought in my head.
All this time I’ve been keeping myself alive for a person who treats me like shit an knows it and bloody fucking knows how it makes me feel. I give endless amounts of apologies for things I’m not even doing wrong. I kept myself alive for an invalid reason, IM NOT EVEN DOING IT FOR MYSELF! I’m not selfish, I’m postponing my suicide sometime away from anyone of my familys birthdays or holidays. After christmas, I’m fucking gone baby, free from this hell 🙂
I love the though of dying. The thought of suicide no longer makes me sad or uncomfortable… I don’t think about committing suicide by taking pills now… I think of cutting my wrists and watching the blood drain from my body. Thinking about it brings a smile to my face. I wish I could do it… But harley would be destroyed… I love the thought of dying… I now know why I cut, I can’t handle being upset in any way… Its almost like a punishment for feeling upset plus I like watching the blood erupt out of the slice I make in my skin. […]