Its me again. And I Failed again..
When will I be good enough?
To show everyone that I have a purpose?
That I do have a sense in this world?
Why is it everything I can reach slips away again?
Why do I deserve this? Do I really deserve this?
They call me selfish for failing and giving up.
Little did they know I have tried and tried even though at times its rough.
They get disappointed when I fail, disappointed if I’ll kill myself.
I do not know anymore. I am drowning. I couldnt love myself.
I sacrificed but still, when will I be GOOD enough?
When I’m dead?
Author
Sueheart
Ive been sad. Empty. People triggers the darkness i feel everyday. I cannot remember when was the last time I was happy. All I can remember was faking a smile, fake a laugh and fake happiness. I wasnt happy at all.
I’ve lost time, failed oftenly, judged too quickly, degraded more often. I wasn’t sure if I was worth the life given to me. Or what is this all about? I’ve been fighting my anxieties for a long time. I drown and when I get up i drown again.
What is my purpose? I am sick and tired. I am hurt. My heart hurts. Its been broken. […]