life feels so alone and pointless
Suicidal_teen45
Back where I was. back where I belong. back planning my suicide one more time
I had thought things maybe changed for me after all this time. I thought it as time for me to finally be happy. I couldn’t be mistaken more. People like me can never be happy. Meant to be tormented maybe in order to have a balance in the world after all not everybody can be happy. I found out that all this time I was simply lying to myself and trying to just desperately ignore everything wrong with me but here I am back exactly where I was two months ago but this time with an even more broken heart. I want nothing from this […]
I just can’t handle this anymore. Just when I thought maybe things are getting better. Maybe I can live. Just for it to break apart apart once more and this time I don’t think I can survive. I want to end it so bad. I know eventually I will do it I just need the courage to try once more. I’m so tired so tired and empty I just want to stop everything.
So after what happened last time, mom decided to make me see a doctor. Even though I don’t want that, because I know therapy won’t help me it’s too late now I cant be helped but I have to do this for her sake after what I put her through. idk how will this go wish me luck.
I feel so broken I don’t think I can be fixed.
So alone useless depressed sad suicidal I’m nothing yet I can’t end it. I don’t want to hurt my mother I’ve already did so much damage. I just want to die more than anything my existence is literally useless no one even cares even if they say they do no one really does. Nobody is there when I’m crying while everybody is sleeping when I’m piercing my skin with this blade. God please if you’re there just end me please.
I was so close yet so far. I hate that I’m still alive. Now everybody are gonna treat me like a crazy person and have to put up with my crap
I’m just sitting here about to end it all. I just wanted to talk to someone before going and I found out that there is nobody I could talk to. Nobody understands they’re all fed up with my shit I’m just a fucking burden. This will probably be the last thing I post online. I can’t wait to go and find out what’s on the other side. Whatever it is I think it’ll be better than this meaningless life. I hope so at least. Goodbye everyone I wish you all good luck with what you’re going through.
Today I end it all. I’m gonna leave home and go somewhere 3 hours away. I will leave a note and send an email to make sure it’s found. I just hope I will be forgotten and no gets sad over my death.
I wasn’t able to do everything I wanted I ran out of time but we’ll finally I’m about to leave this world.
What do you guys think is waiting for us after the sweet release of death
I’m literally a wreck, a walking disaster, I’m a mistake I should have never existed, I can’t be alive, I don’t know how to. All that I’m thinking about all the time is death. I only have 2 days left. I don’t want anybody to remember me, I don’t want anybody to feel bad for me or cry for me, I just want to be forgotten. I don’t deserve to be alive.
why there must be so much pain
what you do if you knew you only have 7 days left to live ?
I really am so very tired of being alive I don’t want to exist anymore, my life is nothing but a disaster, and it just keeps on getting worse every passing day. My depression is taking over every aspect of me. It took away my friends and family it took away my motivation and will to live, it took away my life. I hate myself so much and I can’t keep living anymore, I’m nothing, I’m so fucking pathetic and useless. I keep on disappointing everyone around me and kicking them away. I would have killed myself a long time ago but I don’t want to […]