Let my thoughts
eat away my brain
my memories
that should be forgotteb
Tomorrow…
i should do the whole
world a huge favor.
I will not say goodbye
Fuck it!
People dont want me here
i dont want to be here
If its worth hurting people
then fine.
It shouldnt matter
what the fuck i do.
Everything i do
is always fucking wrong!
Lets face it!
I aint worth shit
i never curse this much
but my anger
is more like rage.
I will burn in fucking hell
For your sake.
I will lose everyone
i know for my selfish reason.
Like i said
i […]
SuicideKillMe
Hollywood Undead- I Don\'t Wanna Die
i want this song played at my funeral :3 but it is a very good song ya should listen.
Someone I know
will lose their life.
Someone i know
has taken the same path
that we all wanna.
Someone i know
we will all miss.
Someone i know
was part of our family.
Someone i know
has taken theis day.
Someone i know
i hope they are okay.
Someone i know
i am worry greatly.
Someone i know
i wanna see alive.
Someone i know
i cant bare to hear
the news of a falling member.
Someone i know
i couldnt help stop them.
Someone i know
are they still breathing this minute.
Someone i know
really… we will miss you
Someone i know
I really have no where to go. No one to see. No place to be. Really one of the reasons why i wanna die. My life is fucking boring. I have no one to talk too. Its like 1:36 a.m. and have nothing to do. I dont even wanna sleep but that seem to be the only option i have. I guess if living life with nothing to accomplish or see throughtout the world. My eyes should be shut and my heart should stop beating.
Well im pretty sure sooner or later my grades will drop. Today was a depressing day. My tooth aches like a *****. And i had an emotional breakdown. Yesterday i found some medicine that i read on the back about the overdosing on it. The one thing that could possible drown my lungs as i gag for air. Man i hate myself its a struggle to breath like now it seems i stop breathing. But other than that im listening to some wonderful hollywood undead.
Bullet-hollywood undead
i dont wanna die-hollywood undead
coming back down-hollywood undead.
those are some pretty good songs. I play them repeatly even […]
Is it so wrong that now I just wanna save a life? Instead of moaning and complain on how I wanna die I rather help someone instead. I wanna help a dying person even if it means I’m losing mines. Really? I wanna do right than do wrong. Be remember of the girl who saved a person’s life instead of killing herself. The last deed she done before leaving this horrible horrible world. Say my final goodbyes before I have one of my organs taken away from me. I don’t need it. I really don’t want to give my body to science nor be an […]
Im reading this book call Parrotfish. Its about this girl who thought that all her life that she is really a boy. She cut her own hair and brought all boys clothes from goodwill. Now her new name is Grady and her mother, sister, and a lot of people from her school dont accept who she is. Her father, brother, and her new friend Sebastin dont mind it at all.
As i was reading this book it got me thinking. If i was transgender would my family accept me? My friends? The one person whom i lovieth? Would he be creepy out. Find it weird? Or […]
Why? do people not say good-bye. Why? must they depart and leave me alone. Why? was it too late? Many people had left. My pen has vanish. My world… curupted under pressure. What else could i lose now. What else must crawl away from my presence? How i die so much each day knowing i have nothing else. What else? The one i left dont want to be with me anymore. I worry so much that each day could be our last. I want it to last forever… but forever isnt enterity. If i must… should i crawl on my broken legs before i faint.
Is it okay that i live in my own world? That i came into the real world for many reasons uncall. But sink slowly back into my world. I hate being here but i enjoy being in my world. My world actually makes me happy. It maybe small but i lovieth it. Would i be call insane that i have this world? But if i do kill myself would my world be taken away from me or could i still have it. :L
You didnt win
cause you are suffering from guilt.
I didnt win
cause i had kill myself.
Soceity is the coruption of what
men and women are living in.
I live in my own imagination.
I live in my own world where
there is me and people close to me.
Nyuu family that cant erupt
and destory my own society.
Then it disappear.
I live in a world where Society
is stabbing me repeatly.
That i go to school
where people stare you down
insult you
and mock what you created.
Very soon…
i will fall underground in society.
Where i guess hell
will be […]
You know what im done. Im seriously done. Today was that last straw. They litterally push me off the edge. What did i do wrong. I want to know the answer. What have i done wrong. I never talk to them if they talk to me. I dont really care for them. They are extermely loud i could possiblly loose my hearing. They dont know how much they already kill me and they did. They really did. I dont want no apology cause thats not enough. I hate my school so much i rather get my ged then get a dioplama. As long as i […]
Why why must it be so cold? Why couldnt it be that nice fall weather i enjoy so much of. I am finally alone and now what? I could be hanging myself right now. I want it to be a nice warm day when they find my body hanging from the tree. Not a cold depressing fall when it is about to rain. Mother nature has screw me once again.
what did i do wrong? was it the way i look, talk, or see things in a different view. Why am i always the one being mad fun of. I didnt say anything at all and you wanna sling words my direction. If my life is ment to be let this. I dont wanna be here any longer. They told me to say something back. What i do. Nothing. NOTHING! i dont wanna be invovle in anything at all. Now you wanna try say hello to me after what you just fucking say. Fear and dread in ny silence cause it seems your fake!. I […]
im ready to tear every piece of flesh on my body. I’m want it all gone. Dig my nails deep in to skin just to see my blood slept out. Forget about living I will rip my body to shreds before I do any mass distruction to my brain. I will bleed out my flesh and disdain my blood in a drain. Fuck you life! I’m done with your games cause now… I have now pronounce insanity.
Today you guys deserve to smile sad or not O: you guys deserve it. Even if you didnt do anything today i know you really need it. You are all beautiful dont you disagree its a compliment and ya need it. So today smile cause everyone on here has a beautiful one Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
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I want to hide. I want to cry. But right now i feel even more dead than before. I wish he was here to tell me that everything will be okay. That he would hug me tight and stroke my hair to conforted me. But i cant get that. He isnt here. I wanna die. I wanna hang myself from my tree. I dont want to see another day. breath more oxygen into my body. Consently have chest pains, pain in lungs, headaches, sore throat,and other painful health. Why cant anyone just take a hammer and knock me out of my misery cause really. I […]
The day i have mix emotions. The day tht has finally came im fucking 16 >x < great just fucking great. Now i am just living in great fear.
He would say, 'How funny it will all seem, all you've gone through, when I'm not here anymore, when you no longer feel my arms around your shoulders, nor my heart beneath you, nor this mouth on your eyes, because I will have to go away someday, far away…' And in that instant I could feel myself with him gone, dizzy with fear, sinking down into the most horrible blackness: into death.†-Arthur Rimbaud
that is one word to describe my life. Boring. Never anything to do really. I like looking up famous serial killers and some from like the ancient past. I know it sounds weird but i love it. The killings, their childhood, their curput minds. I love everything about it. Call me crazy or a weird freak but its something i do enjoy. I rarely to never go outside. This week it was nothing but headaches. Not worth going outside anyways. I wish i had excitement in my life.Some fun or fucking money. Anything to keep me busy really. *Sigh* just what i need more fuck […]
i thought it is supposed to make you feel good. Alive and a escape that can no longer be bareable/ Why am i listening to music. Why does it make me feel any more shitty. I thought it will be a good day. Got and early birthday present and everything and what do i get? A smack down of depression. I dont wanna live another day. I want music to be my escape. But it seems it left and off to somewhere that it wont go near me. One of these days. I will break. I will break that what is the point in writing […]
its very hot the heat is very hot. Its very hot but my hands and feet are cold? the fan isnt on. but my hands and feet are cold. Why is that? Has anyone ever thought about burning theirselves to death? Anyone has try it. It got me thinking. Its painful, a lot of skin will be damage and your internal organs will be cook. But just a though. Burning to death? Is it the only most painful way to go?