I’m feeling empty everyday and everytime. It’s my first day spending 3 months in australia, and I have absolutely no idea what I’ll do. Its sunday and I did nothing for the whole day. Im just throwing out whats on my mind without even thinking like a machine, its so weird. I tried drawing, got bored, youtube, got bored, reading, got bored, and so on. Tomorrow first day of school and stressed. I can do nothing at all.
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A comedy mask. The most common way of hiding depression, wearing a mask making others believe we’re ok. I’m sick of it!
I’ve had depression since I’m 12, now I’m turning 16. Oh fuck how long does it last! I’m having so much trouble explaining the emotional pain I’m in it’s awful! Even with art its hard to express such a pain. Pff psychologists make money with people like me! And I can have all the hatred of the non-depressed people, they’re just as much of a monster as me. Anyway I lost hope long ago. Depression is just an endless cycle. Apparently there are ways to break that cycle but it’s just like propaganda. It’d be best if it were true but it isn’t! But you […]
Why do I need to fucking work so much and get nothing back? People around me do absolutely nothing and they are fucking congratulated for what they did. Why am I not? Simply because I FAIL! Doesn’t work lead to success? Every, EVERYTIME I work for something (exams and such) I fail. “Yes, you work a lot” people say. But I DONT FUCKING CARE! I want to have good grades in high school. I want to not fail. I tr y as much as I can but I fail. It’s annoying. Am I just dumb or something? I tried all the stupid advice evry fucking […]
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It’s been on my mind for quite a while and now i’m getting trouble sleeping. Why does basically everyone lie? Why does everyone have to be so mean? Let me explain my point; the other day I was asking a girl I know why she found me so annoying and stuff, she said “I don’t, you have to understand that I really like you and I’m sorry if I did anything wrong!” Haha. In French it’s called “la mauvaise foi”. Why does she have to LIE? I don’t understand! Why does everyone has to fake the fact that they like me? I don’t deserve this! […]
Deep inside I want to die but I’m too afraid… I keep crying endlessly! I like drawing. I try to draw but I can’t because I keep crying and crying and crying! Even writing this is hard… I keep crying. I need a hug. When’s the last time someone hugged me? It’s been a long time. I haven’t cried within years. I haven’t shown any signs of emotion within years. I always was the strong guy who barely cared about emotions but this is gone. I feel so weak. I am so weak.
It’s always like that… I want to hug her… Oh fuck! It’s just my imagination! She isn’t here. She doesn’t love me anyway. It’s so hard to be in love. Just want to die and get rid of this feeling!
Hello. First off; 15 years old, for you to know.
So, fucked up even more, dug even deeper into the abyss of depression or whatever-the-fuck it is. Being frustrated in life more and more. Posted on reddit (/depression), with title “Just realised I’m a fake person.” No answers. Noone cares. Cry. Angry, bad language.
“Yeah. Fake emotions, fake smile, fake love, fake friend. Fake everything. So… That’s basically it, I have friends I like, other I pretend I like them (and I fucking know they do too) and the friends I like, they don’t like me. I’m just the.. how do we say that in one […]