I was in love with this boy. He had black hair, bright blue eyes, and scars on his arms. He held me in his arms everyday I saw him. He grabbed my hand when he saw hopelessness in my eyes. He kissed me when I felt alone. What else could I have asked for? When we were in bed naked, lying next to each other, he’d kiss the scars on my arms. The bruises on my hands. The burns on my wrist. I was in love, so deep, that I would have never imagined the day to come that he’d no longer want me. Love […]
the empty shell
She sits up high surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
“Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I’ve been up here so long I’m going crazy”
And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?
Now don’t be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
“Big deal,” […]
I am someone you may not understand,
I am someone you may or may not know.
I am someone who cares too much.
I am someone who thinks too much.
Talks too much.
Talks too little.
Thinks too loud.
I am beautiful.
I am ugly.
IÂ am fat.
I am skinny.
What do you want me to say?
I don’t know what I am
Who I am.
But I am someone.
Look at yourself. You’re not perfect.
In fact, you’re far from it.
But this is me.
I cannot change myself.
I fall easy.
I break easy.
But why can’t someone hold me?
Breathe my love and just accept me.
I’m too broken to see this isn’t love.
I cannot be repaired but I always hope.
I won’t die for her
I won’t die for him.
I’ll die for me because I wanna be dead.
Can’t help this feeling.
But I gotta hold on.
No matter what..
When you’re all alone, and there’s nobody to hold you,
you cry, you weep, all by your lonesome.
When there is nobody to care, and you’re swalloed into despair, you give up. Ready to see what’s really up.
Scream and cry, swallow and die.
Sleeping pills that were supposed to take your life.
Wake up with an IV in your arm, people asking questions whether you’re into self harm
Drinking charcoal, in a hospital gown.
They shouldn’t have saved me. What the Hell do I do now?
They put you in a mental hospital when you’re released from the hospital.
Sleep in a bed with lumps, shower in a gray bathroom.
I was there for […]
If this is what it takes
to show that I’m hurting
then let me die.
If this is what it takes
to show that I want you,
care for you,
then let me down.
It wouldn’t be the first time you let me down.
When I held the bottle of death,
you yelled, never wept.
Took your sweet time and left.
Gave excuses and never took the blame.
Never accepted being wrong, still it’s the same.
When I needed you,
you never came.
It’s always going to be the same.
So I’ll light another cigarette,
so the smoke will take the scream.
I’ll take the weed if it promises to take the pain,
they tried to say “You’ll get over […]
My best friend wrote this, while we were bullshitting, smoking a cig.
All she is,
is a midnight cigarette;
like a heart attack.
on the flesh of her wrist,
never to be kissed.
Her midnight smoke is burning,
and she choke.
Up the memories of somone long forgotton,
someone lost in her own thoughts.