So words are kind of failing me right now, i’m not really sure what i’m intending to type in this post but i guess we will see where it goes.
I’m just struggling to keep caring, to keep on going and to give a shit about what i do with myself any more. I’m stuck in this fucking void of self hate and i only hate myself more for being stuck there because i have absolutely no right to feel this way. I just don’t know what i’m supposed to be doing anymore, i’m just such a fuck up and i get everything wrong. I’m treating the people around me awfully and i don’t know how to stop, i just want to stop. I can’t bring myself to do anything i don’t know how i even manage to get out of bed in the morning.
I don’t even know why i feel this way, that’s the most frustrating part. If i just knew what the problem was i could fix it, i could fix me but i don’t know how to do that and i don’t know what to do anymore.
So there’s my incoherent babble i hope you are all doing ok.