i’ve wanted to kill myself since i was about 8 or 9 and every day i’d come home from school, go to the kitchen, grab a knife, go to the bathroom and just stand there with it at my throat on my tip toes. i hopped one day i’d trip so it’d be kind of an accident and i wouldn’t end up in hell, ( i was religious at the time ) and now i’m almost 16 and i still haven’t done it. i didn’t think i was gonna make it to 10 and now i’m almost 16. i’m such a coward, it’s honestly pathetic. […]