I am not sure there is an easy way out. Instead I am trapped in this miserable existance of soldiering on for the sake of not causing pain to my loved ones. However I continue to cause them pain and worry through my continued sadness. So what do I do? I exist, I can’t say that I live life because it doesn’t feel like that at all anymore. It feels like I am an empty vessel that can just about function but breaks down periodically which is what led me to this site. Another moment of panic and feelings of isolation, despair and helplessness. I […]