I need to talk. I wont go back to the hospital. Meds didn’t help. Therapy didn’t help. Broke, alone, desperately sad. Barely left my bed in 2 years. 6 serious suicide attempts, 8 stays in psychiatric wards, rehab… major depressive disorder, PTSD, praying/begging for death every minute of everyday. I’ve had loaded guns in my mouth, cut my wrists to the bone, (resulting tendon damage not worth it) pills, vodka, plastic bags,… I just want to talk to someone for a while. I’m trying not to drink tonight. It only helps for a while. Alcohol has cost me everything. I’m not sure if I should […]