A year and 9 months ago, my husband of 8 years got his girlfriend pregnant and I found out about both on the same day. He somehow managed to rip my 3 beautiful children out of my arms and I have to dance through hoops just to see them. Last December, I ran into an old friend of mine from high school and ended up moving in with him and his girlfriend. His son moved in. I got depressed and quit the best job I have ever had and ended up flipping burgers. Now, I am sitting in a life that is not my own. […]
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Why do these demons surround me?
And pick at my weary soul?
What would it tke to ground me
after I lose all self control?
How can I cover this flood of grief
If I cant pinpoint it’s source?
I stand here alone in disbelief
Numb to all remorse.
Im not afraid of dying
I welcome it instead
But what’s the point of even trying
Unless I end up dead.
every second of every day
i cant hold it together.
past the point of crying all the time. the tears are gone.
i go through the motions, everything is a blur.
i just want it to end.
i beg for help, nobody takes me seriously. just go on about their happy fucking lives. i do not want to feel this way. i want to end it today. i have access to a pistol. and knives. poisons, pills… trashbags, i could suffocate myself, or not? the misery runs through my veins like nothing i have ever known. WHY AM I HERE???? Is it my purpose to […]