Experiencing a life time of hell right now. Physically mentally and emotionally tired. Suffering from all 3. I think I’m extra weight to the surrounding crowd. I barely see any importance of me. The people who tries to make others laugh deserves to be alone at the end. Failed socially again in a different perspective than any other time frame of my life. Still hoping for the best though.
That’s like whenever I think I’m in a positive mood something comes and crashed me back again worse than the early disaster. “Don’t ruin other peoples happiness if you can’t find your own”. Just grabbed me back when tried to the bright side. What a miserable life?