I recall that you could see someone e-mail on their profile while they haven’t ever mentioned their e-mail in a post; is that still a thing? What I mean is basically: how do I find someone’s e-mail on this site?
I’m guessing that most of you don’t recognize me, but I made this profile about two years ago. Though, I haven’t posted anything in half a year. Just like you, I was at the bottom of the deepest bottle… At some point I started making actual plans for attempting suicide, and I once came very, very close to making an attempt, but I never actually tried anything for real. Here’s a simple explanation of why:
First of all, my school had sent me to a psychologist. That was one of the scariest experiences of my life, but it turned out to be one of the […]
“Never tattoo the name of someone you love on your body” is what they say.
But what if I scarred myself with the name of the person who makes me happier and sadder than anybody else does…? Would people also hate that? At least, if they’d notice…
Everyone always notices your new tattoo, yet no one ever seems to notice all the new scars on my wrist…
I’m alive. Doing better than a few months ago: I don’t make plans for suicide on a daily basis anymore. Sometimes I feel okay, sometimes I don’t. But I guess it all comes down to the “but at least I’m still breathing,” right? Oh well. Just thought I should let you guys know (though perhaps most of you don’t even know me) since I haven’t published a new post in months.
Lesson of the day: nothing happened, things just got better. This could happen to you too (that’s a good thing), remember that.
Also, how’s Trix doing? Is she still around? Thanks, fellow SP bloggers.
Have a […]
Hey guys, I’m back after quite a long time. Haven’t read any posts either. I’m back for tonight because I feel like it would just be so much better if I’d just kill myself…
Also, is Trix okay? I tried to look for her a bit, but I didn’t find anything. I really want to know how Trix is doing.
I want to die. Suicide seems like a really nice thing to do right now.
I’m (feeling) okay.
Nothing happened, I just feel better.
I go to a psychologist every Tuesday and I guess it helps. I haven’t really told her about my suicidal urges, but I have said that ‘death sometimes crosses my mind,’
I’m moving my stuff around the house because I am making one of the small rooms of the house into my own game-room. Actually doing this is a sign that I’m feeling better.
I’ve still had thoughts of suicide, but not that often very bad ones. I’ve still got all the letters and all the ‘materials’, but I think that if I’d attempt suicide that I’m going to rewrite […]
I feel horrible because of this, but I keep wanting to commit suicide so people will remember me…
I want to kill myself so my history teacher will remember me. “She’ll be forever in my memorie,” I hope she’d say at my funeral… “Forever in my heart,” would be even better, but she doesn’t love me…
I’m so in love with her, but I’m pretty sure she doesn’t think of me as anyone special… So, perhaps if I commit suicide she will think of me now and then, thinking about how much I adored her. Thinking about how it’s a shame that I killed myself.
Killing myself […]
I have a major crush on two different women..
The first one I fell for was a 20 year old (now 22) about 1.5 years ago. I met her on a school excursion, but she’s no teacher. She came a long on the excursion because she’s a friend of one of my high school teachers.
The second one was my 34 year old history teacher. I’ve had the biggest crush ever on her for about a year now. I have never liked anyone more than I like her, it’s insane.
But lately I can’t stop thinking about the 22 year old. I want to be with her really […]
This is the song It’s The Fear by Within Temptation. I’ve always really liked the song, but the lyrics are great (that goes for every WT song though, I feel like quite a lot of their songs are about suicide. If you want you can check them out)
I feel like this song is about depression and the story ends with suicide. Tell me what you think?
By the way, I really love the nightcore version of this song too!
So my school building is the worst building ever. It was supposed to be a kind of ‘school of the future’, but instead of that it became the school of way too little space. The hallways are SO small that we’re stuck every. single. time. (Just image all the students trying to go outsife when we’re pretending there’s a fire. Nope, doesn’t work at all) But because it’s so crowded in the hallways I try to avoid the staircases and things like that.
Now, today I couldn’t avoid it and I got stuck between all the other kids. I got so damn annoyed and stressed, […]
Hey guys, I’d like to know where you guys are all from. I have a feeling that quite a lot of the SP people are from the US, but I was wondering if our nationalities are very different from eachother.
Also if you’d like, you could also say which languages you speak. I like to know what countries speak what languages 🙂
Me, I’m from the Netherlands so I’m Dutch. I speak Dutch and English, but I’ve had German class for two years and French class for more than three years.
I hope to get lots of comments so I can get to know you guys a […]
This time my friend retweeted this picture.
I know she means me, I’m the worst friend she ever had.
I pushed her down. I stabbed her.
Thanks for the regret. Sorry for being your friend.
Oh, and by the way, I would very much appreciate it if you wouldn’t put your arm around one of our friends who’s standing next to me, when you know that I miss holding you. It hurts, you know.
I feel like she thinks of me as the biggest mistake she made in her life… She keeps saying things like: “I know better now,” and by ‘now’ she means after she stopped loving me and left me.
She also said something about how she wants to throw everything away because she can’t look at it anymore, but she doesn’t know why she hasn’t gotten rid of it yet. I know, I know, she’s never said this or the “I know better now” directly to me.. But I’m pretty sure that she means she wants to throw away all the things I ones made for/gave […]
When I was twelve years old I knew a girl who was a couple of years older than me. We didn’t talk very often, but we’d had conversations now and then and we both knew about eachother’s selfharm. One time she told me that she was waiting on one of her friends or something, and she was just standing on a brigde (it wasn’t a tall bridge). She told me that two guys passed her and they wisheled and winked at her and said things like: “Hey, pretty girl!” It made her feel very oncomfortable, and she said to me that she felt very temped […]
My best friend retweeted this picture on Twitter. She took a lot of pictures of us together, because “it’s more difficult to remember when you’ve got no pictures,”. She used to mean that in a good way I think. In a way that means: “I want to remember every little second that I got to spend with you, so when we’re older we can look at the pictures and smile while we remember the old times,”
But now, I’m just a person in a lot of […]
So a few posts back I told you about how I was planning on giving this girl I like (not my teacher…) a letter telling her about my feelings for her. I also told you guys in a positive posts later that I pretty much ‘sent’ her the letter. (I don’t want to explain everything again, sorry, it’s complicated)
Anyway, I sent her the letter but I knew that she wouldn’t get it until like last week. So… Today I heard that she got the letter this week. How I know this? Well, I was in history class when a ‘students guide’ of my school came […]
I quite often feel the need to just write short posts about how I feel, and normally I’d post them on my Twitter, but since my friends follow me on there I can’t post whatever I feel or think.
Like right now I just want to say: “I think my history teacher knows I like her, even though I never said those exact words,” or things like that.
I just feel like I want to say short messages like that, but my friends don’t know I like her so I can’t post it on Twitter. But I also don’t think that it’d be a good idea […]
Hey guys, I haven’t been on the SP for a little while now, but I came back because I want to share another song with you. It’s from the Flemish girl group again, called K3.
This one’s a sad song actually, it makes me cry when I listen to it. I like that because a lot of times I feel like crying, but I just can’t. So when I want tears, I listen to this song.
It’s basically about the Titanic, and the lyrics are really beautiful, so I tried to translate them into English. I chose this video because you can also see […]
I’m scared that I’m going to fail my suicide attempt because of the law of attraction, the law that you get what you want, wish, think about and/or talk about.
With getting what you want, I’m afraid that when I’m actually attempting suicide that my survival instinct will start kicking in, which will make me lose the desire to end it all.
With getting what I wish for, that’s kind of the same as the above. I’m scared that once I’m actually dying, I will for some stupid reason start to pray asking my guardian angel if he’ll let me stay alive. “You got what you […]
I want to talk about my frustrations but at the same time I really don’t because I get so extremely mad when I think about them
And I mean the type of mad where I really just want to punch through glass, throw myself out of the window or beat the random person who’s standing in front of me.
My friend is pissing me off SO FREAKING MUCH goddamnit!!! She retweets this fxcking tweet that says: “If you don’t get a little gay with your friends than you’re not close enough,” B*tch please?! You didn’t want to hold my freaking hand at school because people thought we were a couple! Okay, I get it that is a little different from what the tweet says, but really????? Gosh! And there are SO MANY […]