What would we/me do without it? Took me 3 vodka’s to steady my heartrate earlier. Addicted now, circumstances dictated it, and the only thing that got me through the nights the past few months, and I thought I was heading out anyway, so why not drink enough to sink a battleship? Yet another reason to go now. The thought of a rehab thing is laughable to me. I’m gonna come out with the same shit in my mind without booze to ease the mind and body. They won’t get me!
Woody
You still here man? or are ya just hungover with that bottle of scotch?
It’s like a roll call in here every day. Making sure everyone’s still here!
One hour and I could be out. Wtf am I waiting for? I don’t wanna live one more second or have one more thought in my mind. I’ll never know I existed, and all this shit in my mind will disappear. The world can go fuck itself. It’s a win win situation.
If were gonna be gone anyway. My place is a shithouse right now, I used to keep it very clean but I cant be bothered cleaning now or doing much else, yet Im worried my relatives will come in and see the mess when I’ve popped myself. I’m gonna be gone, I shouldn’t really care if they’re gonna have to clean up a bit.
Recent bereavement after a bad illness, I was with em practically every day through life, so it’s hit like a cannon.
OCD
Social Phobia/Agrophibia-Lost a lot of years to it. Lot of bad memories from it as well.
Depression.
Constant minutely suicidal thoughts which I aint been able to follow through on yet, and fear of not being to fucking do it.
Probable alcoholism caused by the bereavment, had to get out my mind for a while every day or I’d have gone mad.
A future that I can’t even contimplate, so I need to get the fuck out of here.
Im sure some of you can beat on some on this, […]
Did he pop himself or is he still around? I enjoyed that guys posts.
I’m from the UK, but it’s a shame I won’t be around to see how the Donald will do as US President. Would have been interesting.
Been thinking of the last song I wanna listen to before I get around to popping my clogs. Terry Jacks Seasons in the Sun seems quite apt. Or maybe the Kids from Fame singing Hi Fidelity. Need to get my playlist sorted.
I think. either this or a hopsital, and I’ll be damned if it’s gonna be a hospital. My mind’s just fractiored more and more every week the past few months. Too much shit happened in my life, and now having to head to the exit door. Im a athiest, but I talked to my local priest last week, and he said it was a cowards way out. If only he knew what it takes to head to the finish line…
To get the hell out of this place whilst I’ve still got a sane mind. I think I’m now going slightly mad.. 🙂
I dunno what stage of the process this is, but fear for me is not on the same level it was before. I’ve still got some, I wouldn’t be human If I didn’t, but the exit door is so tempting, and my life and mind are so fucked up that I think I’ll do anything to check out.
I think I’ve posed this question before, but Im thinking it again. I’ve been through mental health problems in my life that normal people would never get a sniff off, except people on sites like this who are the know about some of them or similar conditions. Pure OCD and agrophobia(which had a lot of reasons behind it) which left me inside for a long time. Should have got help, but the OCD came in the middle of the agrophobia which meant I didn’t want people around me, OCD went into remission, but came back again a few years ago, and I got pissed around […]
Just curious to see if most of the people on her are intovert’s, or whether suicidals are most likely to be introverts. I certainly am, and always have been. I’ve got a bit a social phobia, I can hold a conversation with anyone for sure, not shy, but then I’m likely to get bored pretty quickly with it 🙂 Some people just seem to be able to talk all day. I’ve certainly never been the go to guy to get the party started.
This is the thing with posting on a suicidal website, never know who’s gonna be there the next day… I used to post on non suicidal websites and you always knew everyone would be there the next day..
Looking for a shoutout from Salt and Sammi xoxo
Gotta love em, but they come in at the wrong times. Practicing my suicide note today, and they barged in asking how I was doing. “I’m doing fine I say” whilst trying to hide my suicide note to them behind my back.
They’ve been great, I’ve not got family I live with every day now, but they are still close. When I pop my clogs they’ll get over it though. In a few years I’ll just be someone who someone reminises about at family gatherings, and that’s fine with me. As long as I’m well gone by that time I’m happy to be a footnote. Very […]
I’m sure this has been asked by a few people on this site over the years. Is there ever gonna be a perfect time for me to go though with it though? I feel I’m messing around now and delaying the inevitable, which is surely coming sooner or later. Some people on here with help could probably get back to a constructive life again certainly younger people, I’m in my early 40’s though, and I am simply tired now. too much has gone before, and is still happening. I don’t see any point in anything anymore. I didn’t sign up for this shit. I can […]
Today, I remembered a spot with an 80 foot odd drop. Scouted and it seemed perfect.
Now the sober reality has hit. I’d have to scale a 9 feet guardrail whilst holding my balance, and then turn when I get to the other side, and be 80 feet up without holding on to railings. Plus Im planning to do it drunk.
So weve got a drunk idiot hanging on to railings 80 feet up… Somehow I dont think so.. Back to the drawing board I think.
Not actually discussing methods here so I dont think it contravene’s the rules, just asking for opinions on this.
This seems to be the one most people find a “dishonourable” way to go. What’s gonna be done to the driver, engineer and family, yet thousands of people do it every year. It’s one of the one’s that was always on my mind tbh, though I dunno if I could do it. If you’ve totally ran of potential methods and ya absoultely desperate then ya gonna start looking at the more brutal ones. I’d imagine most potential suiciders would have at least weighed it up as a […]
Most of my fantasies used to be sexual based, now they’ve mostly become suicidal based. Can’t think of the last time I had a sexual fantasy actually!
How the fuck can I find the strength to get through tommorow? Major OCD varients that hit me as soon as I get up, a social phobia that has wrecked my confidence, and a recent berevament which totally floored me and which has caused me to turn to booze.
My relatives just say “you’ll get through it”. No I wont fucking get through it, They don’t know shit about what’s going on in my mind. I’m gonna eventually go mad I think, not mad that anyone’s in danger. but mad in that I have a breakdown or something that I’m gonna end up in some hospital […]