Here it comes again, the self-loathing. If this makes me retch, I don’t even want to know what it makes others’ feel. It’s a disgusting scream looking for a way out.
Today, the kindest person I have ever known and with the most patience told me he was putting distance between us once and for all. Finally, my fear-centric behavior was too much as well for him to bear. He tried to help for two years, helping through two crisis periods (where a good deal of my understanding of the world crumbled). Nice piece of work from my side to push him away, too.
I find no […]