death seems very calming and appealing to me these times… i’ve always never been in a good relationship with people – friends, family, girlfriend, etc… i never wanted to hurt anyone but i always end up inflicting pain just about on everyone who comes in contact with me. i’ve tried hard to be a good person but it seems like every effort i make is hopeless. i’m 30 now and have been living with anxiety disorder since childhood. i don’t want to give up but it feels like death is the only way to end all pain on both sides. my mind is split. i […]